so we stayed in bed all day and watched doctor who and ordered carolina’s for delivery. then we got ready and went to see my sister perform at some tree lighting ceremony. then we went to target and bought a bunch of stuff. then we went to northgate. now we’re home and drinking wine and snacking while we make tomato soup for our grilled cheeses. i love him.
idk how to explain this but wearing this shirt is so weird. i really miss dan right now so i put it on but i haven’t worn this in months. when he left for london last year i sneaked it away and wore it every night cause it smelled like him. then in chicago i wore it every night because he’d come home late from work and i couldn’t sleep without him. but i haven’t worn this since april when everything was upside down. i put this shirt on to make me feel better but right now all i can think about is how wet my sleeves were from crying into them. and how it didn’t keep me warm the night i ran out into the street. and how i threw it away when i was packing because i wouldn’t need it anymore. and how when i left i had to run back in to grab it because i needed it. i needed him. i love this shirt. but right now i can’t even explain how i feel about it. there aren’t any words to explain how happy i am that i ran back in a grabbed it. that i didn’t just throw it away. that even though i left, i kept it and brought it back with me. because now i still have this shirt and the good man that came with it.
"Heartbreak is a burden to us all, pity the man with two."
Aziz Ansari, Buried Alive (via baveuile)
But I guess ultimately what scares me about marriage is where do you find this person? You know a lot of times, most successful relationships, people meet through work, school, mutual friends.
But what’s most interesting to me is when people just meet in life, just randomly.
You know, I have a friend, he got married, I asked him like “Hey, uh, where’d you meet your wife?” He was like “I was leaving Bed, Bath & Beyond. I was looking for my car - I drive a gray Prius. I saw a different gray Prius, I thought it was mine, I walked up to it, I realized I had the wrong car, but I bumped into Carol, we started talking, that was that”. That’s unbelievable.
Think about all the random factors that had to come together to make this one moment possible - this one moment that changed these two people’s entire lives:
First off, this guy has to live in this particular town. Then he has to get a gray Prius. Then he has to need to go to Bed, Bath & Beyond. Then he has to go to that particular Bed, Bath & Beyond. Then there has to be another guy who also lives in town, also drives a gray Prius, also needs to go to Bed, Bath & Beyond, also goes to that particular Bed, Bath & Beyond at around the same time. Then they have to both park somewhat near each other, my friend has to leave before the other guy leaves, see the wrong Prius, think it’s his, walk up to it. Then the woman, Carol, needs to be near the wrong gray Prius for a million other random reasons. They bump into each other, they start talking, their entire lives are changed.
That’s the most amazing and terrifying thing about life.
It is, cause the amazing thing is that at any moment, any one of us can have that moment that totally changes our lives. You could be leaving the show tonight, bump into someone… it could change your life. You don’t know, that could happen.
The terrifying thing is… what if we’re all supposed to be at Bed Bath & Beyond right now?"
I didn’t wanna fall in love, not at all. But at some point you smiled, and, holy shit, I blew it"
oh my god i can see the lisp